It wouldn't be me, not the real me, if I just shut up and swallowed all the time.
You may be like that. Maybe that makes you more submissive than me.
When stuff bugs me I do swallow sometimes. I'm a grown up. We learn to deal with stuff, not to fight everything, to try to pick our battles.
Yesterday, in the midst of the shitstorm that my life suddenly turned into (and yeah, I get that none of my problems were huge), I had a nasty little interchange with my Dom.
It started small and blew up from there.
I said my bit last night. Told him what was wrong. I think he thinks he gets what was wrong and thinks it ridiculous. I think he has no understanding of what my issue was in the first place.
It was a nasty pissy little fight.
Not surprising after the day I had.
So... now?
I wish it hadn't happened.
I want to turn back time.
Though I damn sure don't want to relive yesterday.
Today has to be better, right?
Let's hope today is better. Don't beat up on yourself about yesterday. Stuff happens.
ReplyDeleteGosh, I hate this blogger proving you're not a robot. Will now try for the fourth time to get the letters rights.
FD
I agree with Florida Dom. . keep yourself serene. . think of the wonderful , warm and kind person you are. And be all you want to be.
ReplyDeleteJust let yesterday go and move on from here. I don't shut up and swallow all the time either. It depends on many outside factors on how react to things but I am doing a wee bit better at picking my battles. Have a great day. .
ReplyDeleteI am where you are, or trying to avoid going where you are. do I speak up knowing it will cause a problem...or do I just try very hard to gather all my submissiveness? Pretty sure we have all been there, today will be better! abby
ReplyDeleteOh, have I been there...sigh!
ReplyDeleteIf you just shut up and swallowed all the time I for one would wonder if aliens had taken you over.
ReplyDeleteThe tension between your desire to please Him, and your inclination to be in control, and your willingness to write openly about it, is all part of what makes your blog so very, very fascinating.
Personally, I always end up snappy and irritable in the few days leading up to a vacation. Mom is always the logistics manager, and that means it's all on your shoulders, the who's packing what, ready when, omg we can't forget that... Added onto a crappy day...
Hang in there, Honey. In a day or so thing will be different.
I can testify that shit storms do pass. No one REALLY sucks it up and smiles sweetly all the time. That is a bullshit myth, and I for one am ready to call it for what it is. We are each and all humans, and as such, we have our moments. Oh well.
ReplyDeleteI hope today was better.
Sending a hug,
Sue (swan)
Hope today is better...
ReplyDeletehugs,
aisha
P.S. I really agree with LM. If you just submitted all the time, i'd want them to check your fingerprints.